Wednesday, November 16

Disappointment

I didn’t get the job. I’m a little bummed, but honestly there were people that were better qualified. I also think I could have done a much better job at presenting myself. I knew I wanted the job, but I couldn’t really articulate why they should want me. Part of that is that it was something that I didn’t have experience in, but honestly I have comparable experience doing other things that had I felt more confident interviewing I could have pointed out.

I remember receiving the advice that if you want a particular job you need to walk the walk like you already do it. It’s kind of like the advice, if you want to be happy, smile and your mind will follow. If you want to be a clown, act like one and eventually you will become one.

She seemed interested enough, or at least polite enough that she asked if she could contact me if another position opens up in the near future. I really would love to give this a try, so I hope that I do get a give this a go. But meanwhile, perhaps this letdown will help me really qualify what it is I want to be doing the next few steps down the road. With the baby on the way and a new mortgage payment I feel a bit conflicted as to how I really want to juggle things. I told myself that I would give myself six months in my current job before I started making plans for my next move. It’s been 4 and a half, and the situation is little different then I expected it to be. It’s time for me to start answering the questions I am asking.

8 comments:

utenzi said...

I'm sorry to hear tht you didn't get the job, Lora. I remember your initial reservedness about it--but lately you seemed to really be interested in moving into that job. It's a shame you're going to have to wait to move forward. I doubt the wait will be very long.

Bearette24 said...

I'm sorry, Lora...it sounds as if you have a really good attitude, and I think things usually happen for a reason (or so I tell myself ;)...I bet something even better will open up for you.

Anvilcloud said...

It's always a bummer to not be chosen. It always feels like rejection of some sort, like somebody saying we're not good enough. As much as our brians know that's not really the way it is, it's tough for our hearts to accept it that way.

crystal said...

I'm so sorry, Lora! Bummer. :(

Sue said...

Sorry to hear that,but I'm sure something else will come up. I don't think I could even consider applying for a new job if I had a baby on the way - but then in the UK I don't think anyone would be offered one if they were pregnant, assuming you'll have at least six months off after the birth. Maybe it works a bit differently in the USA. Or maybe it's just that 20 years later people move around more than they did then.

The one full-time job I did, I was expected to give at least a two-year commitment to it. But I certainly wouldn't hvae received maternity pay if I'd been in my job for a short time.

Anyway, all the best as you consider your future.

terrilynn said...

I'm sorry you didn't get the job and hope it was just to clear the way for an even better opportunity.

J Bo said...

Sorry to hear that, Lora. It just means that something better is around the corner!!

gypsy said...

Aw, Lora. Onward, upward. You've got enough going on right now. A new job would be too much. Focus on yourself, your baby, your home. No new job, no new people, no new stress.

Best wishes on everything.